Day 3 - A Trial of My Willpower

This morning almost beat me.

I almost hit the snooze button. I almost stayed in bed. I lay there thinking how much another 30 minutes of sleep would feel *so good*.

Then I swung my legs out of bed and sat up on the edge of it.

Then I forced myself to stand up, and get moving.

At the gym, at about minute 12 on the treadmill, I was thinking: 25 minutes is going to take *so long* but I put my head back down and kept on walking.

At 18 minutes I thought: I can start my cool down now, what's a few minutes less of that?

At 22 minutes I thought: why cool down for 5 whole minutes?

At 25:02 I hit stop in the treadmill and walked away to the cable machines to work biceps and triceps for a few minutes, victory in hand.

I beat my own demons, my own laziness, my own habits of procrastination and cheating myself.

Day 3, in the books.

New Start: Day 2

I made it to the gym a second day.

I lay in bed for a couple of minutes after my alarm went off, but I didn't hit the snooze button. So far, so good, one more morning in the bag.

I did 25 minutes on the treadmill at 2.5 speed, 0 incline.

I did 15 minutes of strength training on the iso machines - chest and back.

I feel hopeful that I can continue this program.

I really want to change my life for the better. I want to be in control of me. I want to be a fitter father, getting back under 200 lbs is just part of the goal. I want to be able to run around with kids, play ball, walk around amusement parks, all without pain. I want to be able to go up a flight of stairs without sweating and puffing for air for 10 minutes.

So, today's non-scale victory was small, but important: No more snooze button!

First Gym Day

I made it to the gym for the first time in this new phase.

I've decided to go in the morning before work, with enough time to go home and shower and maybe eat before leaving to work. This is a challenge for me for a few reasons.

1 - I love to sleep
2 - I hit the snooze button about 50 times every morning
3 - I take a med that forces me to sleep for 8 hours which means
    3a - I have to go to bed early

So, I've decided that it's been 10 years since I got fat, and I'm tired of hating myself in the mirror and failing to do something about it.

It's time to get real. Time to fix my health. Time to get back under 200 lbs.

I walked for 15 minutes, and rode a recumbent bike for 10. I'll be working on getting both the time and intensity of those activities as I go forward. Also will be adding some basic strength training to the mix.

New Plans, New Starts

Tonight: 292 lbs.

Less than I expected. 95lbs more than I want to be.

Wife and I joined Planet Fitness, the $10/mo no-commitment deal. On sale for a sign-up fee of only $1. The gym is a few minute's drive away.

My plan is to get up at 6, out the door at 6:30. Do 30 min of cardio, 30 min of strength, and get showered and head to work by 8. I want to do it 5 days per week, weekends off, but we'll see how that goes.

Maybe I should start 3 days per week to get accustomed to the routine again.

I also want to cut sugar by 95%, and carbs by 50%, and increase my water intake 100%.

Goals, I've got some.

Week 3 Measurements

No change in size, up 3 pounds.

A: 57"
W: 48
L: 287

I'm no a new anti-depressant, and the primary side effect of it seems to be tiredness, headache, and weight gain. So I might be fighting this med.

I have another week on the med before I have a meeting with my psych to evaluate where we are and see if we need to change it up. I'll discuss with him the changes I've made and the fact that I can't lose weight, and see what he says.

IF Week 3, Day 2, All's Well

I'm on my 3rd week of this.

I got over my depression this weekend and tackled with renewed vigor this week.

Making sure I get around 3k steps each day, making sure I don't over eat when I'm in a feeding time. Trying to have slower burning calories at the start of my feeding time by starting with a simple salad.

I wonder if the tape will show any changes this week.

I'll probably not post to this daily now that I'm in the habit of this new life plan. At this point it's just keeping up with the plan and tracking changes to my body.

If you have any questions or comments, feel free to make them here on my blog, or on Facebook.

2nd Saturday on IF

So, this is the 2nd Saturday on IF for me.

I have decided to take 3 measurements every Saturday:

1 - Around = (R) = the girth around the largest part of my stomach
2 - Waist = (W) = my waist where my pants sit
3 - Weight = (L) = my scale weight when I wake up in the morning before I eat

1/13/18
R = 57.5"
W = 48"
L = 290

1/20/18
R = 57"
W = 48"
L = 284

I'm happy that the L went the right direction.
I'm disappointed that my R only went down .5" and W not at all.

I celebrated my unhappiness by letting myself have some sugar. Rainbow sherbet with my daughter, a few margaritas with my depression.

Monday we're back on the non sugar, and we're going to make sure we walk 15 minutes minimum at least once per day.

This body MUST change.