Sunday I failed.
I didn't get up to go to the gym because I planned to go with my wife while the kids were at my mom's. Kids didn't feel up to visiting mom, so wife didn't go to gym, so I procrastinated all day long and ended up not going either.
I told myself all day that I should go. Then as it got later, I told myself that I'd just walk around the block when the kids went to bed. I didn't do any of that. I sat and watched YouTube all day long.
Today, I snoozed once, but got up and got to the gym and did my 25 mins on the treadmill. So it's a partial victory, but better than a failure.
Showing posts with label gym. Show all posts
Showing posts with label gym. Show all posts
Monday, August 20, 2018
Thursday, August 16, 2018
W2: D5 - My Shirt Doesn't Feel As Tight As It Used To
This morning, when my phone went off, I hit snooze, and fell back asleep for 8 minutes (what a weird arbitrary number that iPhones use for snooze).
Then, when it went off again, I immediately cursed myself for letting myself hit snooze.
The dark-side nearly won today.
Then I went and did my 25 minutes on the treadmill, and 10-15 min working biceps and triceps. I spent an extra 10 minutes at the gym to make up for my lapse in snooze discipline.
I noticed yesterday that the shirt I was wearing wasn't as tight across my belly as I'm used to. I don't know if the shirt was just stretched out, or if my clothing is starting to fit differently already...I want to say it's just a baggy shirt, but I want to hope that it's my body changing.
Then, when it went off again, I immediately cursed myself for letting myself hit snooze.
The dark-side nearly won today.
Then I went and did my 25 minutes on the treadmill, and 10-15 min working biceps and triceps. I spent an extra 10 minutes at the gym to make up for my lapse in snooze discipline.
I noticed yesterday that the shirt I was wearing wasn't as tight across my belly as I'm used to. I don't know if the shirt was just stretched out, or if my clothing is starting to fit differently already...I want to say it's just a baggy shirt, but I want to hope that it's my body changing.
Wednesday, August 15, 2018
W2: D4 - Each Day is a Little Victory
It seems like week 2 is going to be my struggle week so far.
I had a big fight inside my head this morning. Last night I was feeling poorly when I went to bed - something like the beginning of a cold - and it was really hard for me to convince myself that I'm not sick.
But, the light-side (life changes for the better) won against the dark-side (procrastination and depression).
This time.
Each day I get to the gym, I'm counting as a little victory. Even though I only did 25 minutes of cardio, even though I walked at a slightly slower pace than yesterday, I'm still there, putting in the time, not letting my dark-side win.
I had a big fight inside my head this morning. Last night I was feeling poorly when I went to bed - something like the beginning of a cold - and it was really hard for me to convince myself that I'm not sick.
But, the light-side (life changes for the better) won against the dark-side (procrastination and depression).
This time.
Each day I get to the gym, I'm counting as a little victory. Even though I only did 25 minutes of cardio, even though I walked at a slightly slower pace than yesterday, I'm still there, putting in the time, not letting my dark-side win.
Thursday, August 9, 2018
Day 3 - A Trial of My Willpower
This morning almost beat me.
I almost hit the snooze button. I almost stayed in bed. I lay there thinking how much another 30 minutes of sleep would feel *so good*.
Then I swung my legs out of bed and sat up on the edge of it.
Then I forced myself to stand up, and get moving.
At the gym, at about minute 12 on the treadmill, I was thinking: 25 minutes is going to take *so long* but I put my head back down and kept on walking.
At 18 minutes I thought: I can start my cool down now, what's a few minutes less of that?
At 22 minutes I thought: why cool down for 5 whole minutes?
At 25:02 I hit stop in the treadmill and walked away to the cable machines to work biceps and triceps for a few minutes, victory in hand.
I beat my own demons, my own laziness, my own habits of procrastination and cheating myself.
Day 3, in the books.
I almost hit the snooze button. I almost stayed in bed. I lay there thinking how much another 30 minutes of sleep would feel *so good*.
Then I swung my legs out of bed and sat up on the edge of it.
Then I forced myself to stand up, and get moving.
At the gym, at about minute 12 on the treadmill, I was thinking: 25 minutes is going to take *so long* but I put my head back down and kept on walking.
At 18 minutes I thought: I can start my cool down now, what's a few minutes less of that?
At 22 minutes I thought: why cool down for 5 whole minutes?
At 25:02 I hit stop in the treadmill and walked away to the cable machines to work biceps and triceps for a few minutes, victory in hand.
I beat my own demons, my own laziness, my own habits of procrastination and cheating myself.
Day 3, in the books.
Tuesday, August 7, 2018
First Gym Day
I made it to the gym for the first time in this new phase.
I've decided to go in the morning before work, with enough time to go home and shower and maybe eat before leaving to work. This is a challenge for me for a few reasons.
1 - I love to sleep
2 - I hit the snooze button about 50 times every morning
3 - I take a med that forces me to sleep for 8 hours which means
3a - I have to go to bed early
So, I've decided that it's been 10 years since I got fat, and I'm tired of hating myself in the mirror and failing to do something about it.
It's time to get real. Time to fix my health. Time to get back under 200 lbs.
I walked for 15 minutes, and rode a recumbent bike for 10. I'll be working on getting both the time and intensity of those activities as I go forward. Also will be adding some basic strength training to the mix.
I've decided to go in the morning before work, with enough time to go home and shower and maybe eat before leaving to work. This is a challenge for me for a few reasons.
1 - I love to sleep
2 - I hit the snooze button about 50 times every morning
3 - I take a med that forces me to sleep for 8 hours which means
3a - I have to go to bed early
So, I've decided that it's been 10 years since I got fat, and I'm tired of hating myself in the mirror and failing to do something about it.
It's time to get real. Time to fix my health. Time to get back under 200 lbs.
I walked for 15 minutes, and rode a recumbent bike for 10. I'll be working on getting both the time and intensity of those activities as I go forward. Also will be adding some basic strength training to the mix.
Thursday, July 2, 2015
Previous Post Was A Downer
Wow, that previous post got down in the dumps.
I went to the gym for the last two days, and I feel a lot better today.
On my drive into work this morning, I decided that I think I probably have Depression, and have for quite a long time, but have always called it other things - low self esteem, introvert, shyness, etc. I'm going to see my doctor in two weeks and get started on getting it diagnosed and treated.
My weight got up to 270 by the end of last week. I skipped the gym for the entire week.
Last night, my weight was 265.2, so I feel like I'm back on track.
I went to the gym for the last two days, and I feel a lot better today.
On my drive into work this morning, I decided that I think I probably have Depression, and have for quite a long time, but have always called it other things - low self esteem, introvert, shyness, etc. I'm going to see my doctor in two weeks and get started on getting it diagnosed and treated.
My weight got up to 270 by the end of last week. I skipped the gym for the entire week.
Last night, my weight was 265.2, so I feel like I'm back on track.
Thursday, June 18, 2015
New Fitness Plan
For my new gym, I've taken a new path to fitness.
I plan to alternate cardio and strength training, with cardio taking the fore. Previously, I've been content to just strength train - mainly because I get so bored with cardio, and also because I've yet to find a form of cardio that doesn't cause me pain.
My current plan is to do cardio on Mon-Wed-Fri and strength on Tue-Thu, taking the weekends off.
Sundays are my new "Scale day" and I won't weigh myself during the week anymore.
Yesterday was my first cardio day, and I rode a regular upright exercise bike. The first thing I noticed was that it hurt my butt - like, a lot. I figured that this was because I'm not used to supporting all 260 pounds of me on a small portion of my inner ass cheeks. For the record, the discomfort never faded, I just got accustomed to it.
The next thing was that my feet started to hurt, which surprised me. The outer edge of both my feet started to ache, and I think this is because my form is bad. I have to ride somewhat bowlegged in order to get around my gut, which means that I'm putting uneven pressure on my feet, knees, ankles, and hips. Which lead to the 3rd thing I noticed, which happened around the 15-minute mark, my left hip started to ache like it needed to pop or something.
Overall, though, I did manage to ride for 25 minutes and hit my cardio range. I rode something like 4.5 miles, and the machine at one point said "Congrats! You just rode the equivalent of a 5K race" so, there's that. I broke a good sweat, though, so I felt like I accomplished my goal, and I pushed through the pain.
After cardio, I did some core strength work on my abs - my degenerative disc disease, ruptured and bulging discs can only be helped by making my core stronger. Years of being overweight (and an 8-year career pushing around hundreds of tons of cargo per year) have been stressful on my back, and my body shape causes me to carry all of my weight in my lumbar, which is bad. I'm trying to get real strength in my abs, while also strengthening the muscles that line my spine in order to carry that weight with muscle instead of bone and cartilage.
That's it for the time being. I'll post another update with my body measurements as soon as my gym manager sends them to me, in case anyone is curious.
I plan to alternate cardio and strength training, with cardio taking the fore. Previously, I've been content to just strength train - mainly because I get so bored with cardio, and also because I've yet to find a form of cardio that doesn't cause me pain.
My current plan is to do cardio on Mon-Wed-Fri and strength on Tue-Thu, taking the weekends off.
Sundays are my new "Scale day" and I won't weigh myself during the week anymore.
Yesterday was my first cardio day, and I rode a regular upright exercise bike. The first thing I noticed was that it hurt my butt - like, a lot. I figured that this was because I'm not used to supporting all 260 pounds of me on a small portion of my inner ass cheeks. For the record, the discomfort never faded, I just got accustomed to it.
The next thing was that my feet started to hurt, which surprised me. The outer edge of both my feet started to ache, and I think this is because my form is bad. I have to ride somewhat bowlegged in order to get around my gut, which means that I'm putting uneven pressure on my feet, knees, ankles, and hips. Which lead to the 3rd thing I noticed, which happened around the 15-minute mark, my left hip started to ache like it needed to pop or something.
Overall, though, I did manage to ride for 25 minutes and hit my cardio range. I rode something like 4.5 miles, and the machine at one point said "Congrats! You just rode the equivalent of a 5K race" so, there's that. I broke a good sweat, though, so I felt like I accomplished my goal, and I pushed through the pain.
After cardio, I did some core strength work on my abs - my degenerative disc disease, ruptured and bulging discs can only be helped by making my core stronger. Years of being overweight (and an 8-year career pushing around hundreds of tons of cargo per year) have been stressful on my back, and my body shape causes me to carry all of my weight in my lumbar, which is bad. I'm trying to get real strength in my abs, while also strengthening the muscles that line my spine in order to carry that weight with muscle instead of bone and cartilage.
That's it for the time being. I'll post another update with my body measurements as soon as my gym manager sends them to me, in case anyone is curious.
Tuesday, June 16, 2015
New Era
A brand new Anytime Fitness has opened up shop in the adjoining parking lot to my work building.
I've been venturing over there and watching the construction all winter/spring, and chatting with the owners when I could. I really like their philosophy and the gym itself.
In case you're not familiar, Anytime Fitness gives you a personal key fob that lets you in the doors of the gym any time, day or night. They are staffed during daytime business hours, usually, they have fixed and flexible scheduled classes like TRX and Yoga. They have a meditation room. They have individual shower/dressing rooms (5 at this location, I think).
Pretty much anything I could want as a self-conscious wannabe gym rat with social anxiety.
They worked out a deal with my company where my company subsidizes part of our membership fee, and I pay a greatly reduced fee for access, get free fitness and body evaluations monthly, and 5 free classes per month. On top of that, I really like the owners and staff that I've met so far. It couldn't be a better scenario.
Yesterday I got my body evaluation. Tomorrow I'm having my fitness evaluation.
Body evaluation - no surprises: Obese BMI; high visceral fat; high body fat %; low hydration %. What was surprising was that I have symmetrical biceps, and my quads are only 1/4 inch different (favoring the left because my right knee is giving me lots of pain, I assume).
268.4 lbs. Still 10 pounds under my heaviest 2 years ago, but I want 69 pounds gone, I want to be below 200 lbs. At a reasonable-but-difficult 2 pounds per week average, giving me 8 lbs per month, it will take me 9 months to get to my goal weight.
July is month 1.
I've been venturing over there and watching the construction all winter/spring, and chatting with the owners when I could. I really like their philosophy and the gym itself.
In case you're not familiar, Anytime Fitness gives you a personal key fob that lets you in the doors of the gym any time, day or night. They are staffed during daytime business hours, usually, they have fixed and flexible scheduled classes like TRX and Yoga. They have a meditation room. They have individual shower/dressing rooms (5 at this location, I think).
Pretty much anything I could want as a self-conscious wannabe gym rat with social anxiety.
They worked out a deal with my company where my company subsidizes part of our membership fee, and I pay a greatly reduced fee for access, get free fitness and body evaluations monthly, and 5 free classes per month. On top of that, I really like the owners and staff that I've met so far. It couldn't be a better scenario.
Yesterday I got my body evaluation. Tomorrow I'm having my fitness evaluation.
Body evaluation - no surprises: Obese BMI; high visceral fat; high body fat %; low hydration %. What was surprising was that I have symmetrical biceps, and my quads are only 1/4 inch different (favoring the left because my right knee is giving me lots of pain, I assume).
268.4 lbs. Still 10 pounds under my heaviest 2 years ago, but I want 69 pounds gone, I want to be below 200 lbs. At a reasonable-but-difficult 2 pounds per week average, giving me 8 lbs per month, it will take me 9 months to get to my goal weight.
July is month 1.
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
Long story made short
I'll write the full story in a future post about my winter, but here's the TL:DR version:
I got meningitis, encephalitis, and pneumonia all at the same time and was hospitalized on Dec 12, 2014. I went into a general seizure in the ER, and was induced into a coma for 4 days, then hospitalized for an additional 5.
A month later, I was back at work, but even today I'm still feeling effects - mainly to do with strange speech issues like fumbling over words or mixing up sentences.
Today, I signed up for a gym membership, and last weekend, I picked up a new Fitbit Charge.
Here's to Starting Over!
257 lbs
I got meningitis, encephalitis, and pneumonia all at the same time and was hospitalized on Dec 12, 2014. I went into a general seizure in the ER, and was induced into a coma for 4 days, then hospitalized for an additional 5.
A month later, I was back at work, but even today I'm still feeling effects - mainly to do with strange speech issues like fumbling over words or mixing up sentences.
Today, I signed up for a gym membership, and last weekend, I picked up a new Fitbit Charge.
Here's to Starting Over!
257 lbs
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